Starting Weight July 2007: 336lbs
Lowest Weight Nov 2008: 254lbs
Weight when I started this blog (Apr 2010): 296lbs
Current Weight March 2011: 268.4lbs
Quite literally! I am tumbling so I don’t eat. I am having a diet coke… I know it’s soda but it’s zero calorie sugary goodness might help….
Major diet fail today. I have the knowledge, I’m just having trouble applying it BEFORE I make decisions.
It’s like an addiction. Only unlike drugs or cigarettes, you can’t live without food. some things you can go cold turkey on, but the rest you have to re-educate yourself. AND make it stick.
I totally justified splurging on a mani/pedi because I have avoided all halloween candy. At first this was just an excuse to get a mani/pedi. But the more I think about it, that’s an achievement! Woooooo go me! :)
There’s no better way to get out of your head & to stop thinking & stressing about your problems, than a balls-to-the-wall cardio session.
Because it’s really hard to keep obsessing & going round in circles over the same problems in your head when you can’t even breathe, and if you don’t concentrate you may fall off the cardio equipment.
new year, new city, new gym, same goal.
Hopefully I’ll be around more to tell you all about it ;)
At the gym tonight in the locker room, I saw a girl getting ready to go out. She looked AMAZING. Black suede thick-strapped platform wedges, and a fitted little black dress with tiny straps. What killed me is it’s exactly my style. I wish I looked even half as good as her in an outfit like that.
It wasn’t even that she looked like a size 2 or 4 (although that helped). But she just looked healthy. And by that I mean fit. Fit, lean, sexy without being trashy. She just looked good. Period.
If I wasn’t standing there in a towel waiting for someone else to move so I could get to my locker, I probably would have told her she just became my thinspiration.
Mostly I was memorized by her flat stomach and that she had curves in all the right places. But yeah, overall she just looked amazing.
Goddamn I want that.
Sometimes when I go to the gym, I just do 20-30 minutes of cardio, some stretching, and all it a day.
It feels lazy, but it’s *something*. And I much rather do 30 minutes 6 days a week than 90 minute sessions once or twice a week.
Consistency is the key!
I was all ready for bed. I had an awesome day. I cooked some pasta before bed purely for leftover & lunch tomorrow purposes.
And then my guy came over. No big deal. Just a surprise is all.
And just as we’re going to sleep I wander back into the kitchen, pull a container of pasta from the fridge, and eat it! What the heck?!
So now I’ve just eaten AND im going to bed AND I’m not even hungry. Well, especially not now that I’ve eaten.
And I’m reflecting on it & trying to work out what happened. And the only thing I can think of was I didn’t think.
I had a major brain fart & thought ‘what was I doing before he got here?’, remembered I cooked pasta, & then I just ate it.
Bad habits die hard. Especially when you go into auto pilot while doing them!
that big girls look big & sloppy in oversized, baggy or boyfriend clothing but smaller girls look ADORABLE. I look forward to the day I can pull this look off successfully :)
